I am…

Fill in my strengths. As part of the healing process, I am supposed to be practicing self-love through affirmations but my mind goes blank.

I can describe the strengths I see in my Love, our children, and my chosen ones without pausing for breath. But when it comes to describing myself, my mind goes blank or on my bad days goes to my many (some days never ending) flaws.

When I have shared this sentiment with my chosen ones, they tell me wonderful things about myself and I feel their love for me. Why can’t I see this for myself? Have I truly been conditioned to not see myself as being valuable and worthy of love? As one of God’s children, why this is hard for me to do for myself?

At some point in life, I believe that I forgot how to shower myself with love. I have been busy with taking care of children, being a wife, learning to stand alone, being a child to aging parents, being an employee and handling all that life has thrown at me. So busy with others and life, that I believe that I simply forgot how to express love for me.

As I am grieving the loss of my father and blending two families together, I am searching to find the right affirmations that will help me heal and find the right path for our tribe.

We are often told, it’s none of your business what others think of you. This isn’t necessarily true. In dark times, we need to hear from the angels (our chosen ones) that God has put in our lives.

I asked my chosen ones from different parts of my life for one postive thing about me with no further explanation. (Apparently I only have 2 friends who follows directions but I know it is all out of love for me.) Some of their responses…

From AP,

“Lady, you are tenacious. You go after what you want with all your heart, and you protect those you love with all your strength.”

From AA,

“You are a great listener.
You protect those around you.
You are honest.
You are trusting.
You are strong. ”

From TG,

” No matter how old or professional you are….you have the heart of a goofball! You may not instigate it, but if the opportunity arises…..😊

So not a bad thing! It is heartwarming and endearing.I hope life never takes that from you. At your core, it shows a resilience.”

From CH,

“you’re VERY caring about people. You’re giving of…you, your time, your home ”

From DW,

Good friend

From SH,

“You are organized you are thoughtful you are a good mother. You are good with finances. You are a good friend. You are a Christian You are a good daughter. You are smart. You are a good tennis player. You are fun to be with. You can be witchy when necessary. You open your heart to others. You are a good social chairman you are a good driver. You can be spontaneous .”

From EV,

“1. You make an effort to keep in touch with people
2. You throw a hell of a birthday party
3. You have amazing children
4. You have a fabulous gift of hospitality/- your door is always open
5. You are a good cook”

From SW,

“You care very very deeply for those that you love!

You are kind

You are smart

You are a ton of fun and you make me laugh

You work hard

You are open to tying new things and are adventurous

You don’t gossip”

From MT,

“You are such a wonderful woman with a kind heart. I don’t know what I would have done without you when I was going through all my crap. You are so thoughtful and put everyone else first. Also one of the smartest tech savy peep I know.”

These messages mean the world to me in my time of need. They affirm that I am living up to God’s plan. I am using the blessings that He has bestowed on me even though I was not seeing it. Although I am human and so very flawed, I am making a difference to others. I am grateful for and humbled by what my chosen ones have shared with me. Their messages made me smile with love for them, laugh at inside stories and shed an occasional tear at their sweetness for noticing little things that I consider part of daily life. This reminded me why they are my chosen ones.

Most of all, I am reminded that I am loved even with my flaws! Now it is time to pray that I see me as they clearly as they do.

One thought on “I am…

  1. My best friend and I often stand facing each other, like we’re looking in a mirror, and rattle off compliments at each other. It’s helpful to look at ourselves the way those who love us see us.

    Someday I hope to love myself, too, so I can see what they see.

    Feeling this post on a deep level today.



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